in search of self and wealth

i made a promise to document of all my reflection during this process of rebirth.

and i realized, that without external interferes, my realest and most comfortable self are the one that i’m trying to keep away and conceal from the public, because it was scary and imhumane.

I found out that one of my biggest needs for survivor is — pleasure.

and im ashamed to admit, that i have explored every possible method-forms.